It's been 4 days since I've been back in Tokyo. We've gotten great results after half a month of business in the Mainland, thank you, I have to thank a lot of people....
I want to say, there's too many things I want to say....Actually I'm not that strong as you guys thought, but it's you guys that gives me the strength to keep on going...!
My first agent when I became an artist, Yue Yue, is preparing to step into the wedding chapel (My God~~She's finally getting married)
. When I think about me and her 3 years ago, actually at that time..She was only a little accountant, hoho~~~But after "following" me, there was no more discipline in her life. We talked about a lot of things today and because we haven't seen each other in half a year, she said I lost weight. I think that she's even prettier than before (the power of love..). I saw her wedding ring on her wedding finger and then I looked at my middle finger with a meaningless gold ring
. They're both rings, but why is there such a huge difference? We pursue 2 different routes, she: to become a full-time housewife; me: still pursing my music dreams, just walking forward by myself....
Actually..there are times when I get tired, get scared, get hurt, but the things I gain surpass those things. I think..I'm worth it..My heart isn't as weak as when I debuted and isn't that easy to shatter. I feel like I've grown up, I've matured. I also know that my heart is a bit blunt...but I know I'm still stubborn, still fighting, still thinking..and I'm accepting my ability to squander my youth, my pride and freedom!
"About happiness, we can't wish for it to be a rose that will never wilt; about love, we can't view it simply; about youthfulness; we can't wish to go by it too quickly; about the future, we can't ask for there to be any rough times. There are times when grief is a kind of cure. When life is too busy that it can't think, people will naturally be impetuous. So the speed of running can let our body burst out with heat, but even with futile efforts, impetuosity can also make people insane."
"Every girl dreams about wearing a white wedding dress, walking into the chapel of happiness. There will be a day..when I'm old where I will live near a river with little pollution and I have a little garden that belongs just to me with 2 camphor trees, 2 little orange trees. There will be little strawberries planted and bellfruits..There will also be some sunflower and lotus and they will be exceptionally charming. I will be trimming the flower stems in my garden and I will see wings in the sky and I will see a silhouette. I will look at bobi and his family playing in the little yard. I will sit on the rattan chair in the center of the garden flipping through the photo album in my hands..and at that moment, I will think of my life..."In the entire process of recalling, there will be everyone's silhouette...there will be the lights from the stage I was on and bits of my life...or maybe when I think of a certain sight, my heart will start to slightly tighten and tremble...This is the kind of small happiness that I want. There's not a lot to pursue, but it's enough for me..It's very peaceful..A breeze will suddenly blow...I will have carelessly dozed off..and when I wake up, someone has already quietly covered me with a shawl....(In the middle of unlimited dreaming..Haha
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Time to sleep!
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